Sunday, October 31, 2004

~bOrinG~


what a boring day...just chatting wif one of my old old classmates...(sec fren)...she was asking about him n told her about his letter all that..haiz...reali...sianzzzZZzzz....while chatting, i was reading one of my sis's blog...n got my self in the test hahaha..reali that 'zhun' anot??? hahaha am i that good ???


Friend Bear
You are everyone's ideal friend because you are sincere and genuinely kind. Sometimes you worry about your friends' problems so much, you forget about your own responsibilities, which can get you into trouble. For you, it's the little things that really count. You also happen to be the main driver of the Cloud Car. No speeding!



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Tuesday, October 26, 2004

~thE ViSit On sUndAy~


i could say i enjoy that moment but i sad after that....i got to see him..finally after a long period...well..he had slim down....y did he put on weight..???haiz...it might be very tough for him...all this little care n concerns i could onli show it through letters...i got to say...n confess ...yes....i do have many many many things to say to him...but somehow its the matter of "face" that makes all the words stuck in my throat....i hate the feeling (cos im a coward) ...the only way i could say all these things is only through letters...even sometimes in the letter, i will try to control n cant juz spill or pour everything out...cos i have to think for him..i cant pressurize him by saying all that stuffs...argh!!!n this makes me feel worse...throughout all this visit...i have hide all my feelings n emotions...for everytime i visit him..my heart will start to pump faster than normal..im so excited...nervous...cum happy...n after every visit..if i were to be at home...this is the time i vent out all my feelings...as being a cry-baby..i would cried n cried ....sob*sob*...memories...feelings...promises that we have made...all juz flashback..n keep repeating like radio...it's haunting me....i couldnt escape...its reali hurts....juz like 24/10 sunday..i just visited him...oh!!that moment reali my heart couldnt stop laughing..when he said that" if they asked just said that u r my....." whooooooo~ reali fly high man!!! i also told him i received his letter n i think i will be receiving another soon....hahaha..in the letter..he said about "7-11" things..he reali mean it??? or he still cares thats y makes him blow his top? or m i reali think too much?? haiz...anyway just feel happy as this visit(26/10) reali makes me feel soooo happy...just for that moment...when i got home...i was raining heavily in my room...just couldnt stop...

...to hOrRibLe...PpL...

people might say "oh! gosh ! stop being so dramatic..or how could it be after so long..." n these reali pissed me off!!!! i juz wanna say..fuck off !!! u people juz wont understand the way how i feel...n nv will u have the chance to experience it ....being so rude is what i turn to be when i met frenz who reali dont understand n treasure me ...the only thing u people know are just backstabbing n ur brains only contain shits!!!!! ....


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Saturday, October 23, 2004

joy!!!

again...i can blog again.....don have to blog during school hours..dont need to vex about when can i blog it again..hahaha...this few days... that teacher..wahahaha..."daphne if u have problem pls tell me ...or find someone else whom u can trust to say ur things..i don wan to see u suffer alone..i reali wan to help u..." sooo sweet!!! this teacher i reali reali wannna praise man...he is someone reali treat me very gd hence i can say that i often abuse this ...in the sense i ask him to print notes which i suppose to photocopy myself...wahahaha..ver bad rite???hahaha..nothing to say but just know he's damn gd...reali....christ n me will know it...cos we both got to know alot of things....thanks....mr sim!!!!

soooo sweet of him....i just received his letter after waiting for 3 months lo...finally!!! i got it...n i can its the sweetest letter n words i heard from him since ?? hahaha...im reali happy lo..dont know how to express it out...anyway..happy is the only word i can use to describe....tml i will be visiting him liao...anxious? excited??? yes!! i am...reali don noe how to say...n started to think what can i say to him..what kind of question to ask....oh gosh!!!! just couldnt calm myself down...cos im tooo excited...hahaha..now have to blog tml liao lo...cos going to start my revision...


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Wednesday, October 20, 2004

*happy/sad(missing him)*
time to blog again....yup thats right...this moment in school..suppose everyone is studying n revising at home..but poor students like us (DBA2A/06)..got to go back to sch for presentation..n worst things is... have to go bck on two days..n the time is really @#$%%##$/...damn angry lo...troublesome..as if we don need time for revising...haiz..wat to do now students are reali 'pai mia'...


ytd...just got a god brother...weiboon...funny yandao kia...he's reali a joker...but 'ke lian' cos cook maggie mee always kanna scolding...hahaha...
i miss him again....it has been 3 months since i received the last letter from him...i wish i could receive it this month..this phrase i have always use to console myself when i got disappointment after opening the letter-box....i keep asking myself..how come i didnt receive it?? is it on its way??? or he doesnt wish to reply??? being so sensitive n pessimistic...make me reali think alot...n reali upset me sometimes...i reali need to tok to him...but i cant...whenever i look at him..i would suddenly loss of words...haiz...hope he reali keep his promise that he would call me on that day....
recently..soooo upset...becos mum does not feel happy...yet i cant help her...i feel sooo bad...i reali don wish the things she say will come true....



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Friday, October 15, 2004

*pReSenTatiOn*
haha...finally i have got over my blaw tutorial liao....haiyo...thinking back to the first dau i receive it..it was sooo nervous..(how can u expected someone who don reali noe all about law to do project for law).....well...now i had understand it alreaady...
ytd juz had a presentation for this...experiencing the felling of being a lawyer...wahahaha~ so fun n great..but i guess it would be the last...as ytd is the last tutorial of this sem n i wont be taking blaw again...had the feeling of don reali wish to end this sem...hahaha stupid lo..i think the main reason is the teacher who teach me ba...if is...Sarah..ok lo...if is sim kian ho...ok lo...sensitive sim....wahahaha..ok lo...but if it is ..rwps....oh no~~ pls...spare me!!! hahaha...
...cReditS gOeS tO...
for this sem i have changed abit..in the sense ..learn to be mre happy though sometimes still very sad :(.. perhaps..is because the person had reali say something that reali wake me up!!! seriously lo...nt watever fairy tales or wat drama series...is him!!! definitely NOT someone who i like or fall in love with....he is someone i pay respect to....perhaps it may be appear that im rude or doesnt respect him..but for me i do....he is my fav...teacher...SENSITIVE SIM..the one who knows how he got his name from...n the one keep calling my nick..n all these nicks came from a long long story and becos of that..i reali..feel that i need to change...hahahaha...must reali thanked him if i pass my blaw in this sem exam...as i keep asking him questions...surprisingly~ he did remember the little notes or so- called three sentences describing urself n he did remember mine n tell me i have to change the way how i think abt myself....
rEalLy sO trOublEsOmE ....
so troublesome when i cant post my blog...it's reali irritating n pissing me off....argh~~...so 'ma fan' got to post at sch...i noe can don post but becos i had the habit of writing diary so no choice gt to tolerate...haiz...frenz..finish her project le..so got to go...

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Monday, October 11, 2004

....irritating....

haiz...i encounter the same problem again....i cant post my blog recently...its so...irrtating..cos i got so much so much little things to say....for the past few weeks, i have been busy doing all the projects...its sooooo tiring and stressing....but cant help....well..lucky NO CONFLICT between group members...erm..this has been always the problems that happen in group project...no time liao...so blog it another time...(cos using sch com. soooo troublesome and no privacy lo...)


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